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Pergunto-me se me conheces realmente, se sabes quem sou?! Serei uma pessoa má ou queres pensar que sim?
Eu sei quem sou, sei que ja errei, pagarei pelos meus erros. Agora sou uma pessoa diferente, acredito que posso corrigir os meus erros.
No fundo sei que nao vale a pena estar a dizer isto pois nunca me iras perdoar, como tenho a certeza qe nunca me deixaras mostrar que estou diferente. Eu posso estar a teus pes mas sei que irei estar a espera de um simples "nao".

Entao porque tento viver? Ignorance (ignorancia minha)

Ignorance

Paramore

If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle a mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore
Where's your gavel? Your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me
Well, sentence me to another life.

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
But you know we're not the same
We're not the same, oh, we're not the same
That the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

This is the best thing that could've happened
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it
It's not a war no, it's not a rapture
I'm just a person but you can't take it
The same tricks that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same kid from your memory
Now I can fend for myself

Don't wanna hear your sad songs
I don't wanna feel your pain
When you swear it's all my fault
But you know we're not the same
We're not the same, oh, we're not the same
That the friends who stuck together
We wrote our names in blood
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good
It's good, it's good

You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend
Ignorance is your new best friend

You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
You treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out

Hoje decidi escrever pela ultima vez, estou farto de lutar, farto de culpar o mundo
por não consiguir aquilo que acredito. Eu bem tento só Deus sabe que sim mas
nada que faça parece surtir efeito. Não quero continuar a viver algo sem sentido
aparente, sinceramente quero morrer! Por muito que digam que tenho ainda muito
que viver ou fazer, eu estou sozinho contra o mundo que apenas me deprime, se não sou bom para
nada mas vale desistir enquanto posso, espero apenas não falhar esta minha ultima missão!

A vos meus verdadeiros amigos sabei que vos levo no coração, e aconteça o que acontecer
perdoai-me. Não quero fazer ninguem sofrer apenas acabar com o meu sofrimento.

Mas por muito que me custe, chegou a hora, Adeus...

Theory Of A Deadman- All or Nothing

when i first saw you standing there
you know it was a little hard not to stare
so nervous when i drove you home
i know being apart is a little hard to bare.

send some flowers to your work an home
so that i will have you in my arms again
we kissed that night before i left
and now thats something i could never forget

you've got all that i need
looking at all or nothing
babe its you and i
with you i know that
i am good for something
so lets go give it a try
we got our backs against the ocean
its just us against the world
looking at all or nothing
babe its you and i
looking at all or nothing
babe its you and i

lets take a chance go far away today
and never look back again
since i said i loved you in las vegas
its never been the same since then

you've got all that i need
looking at all or nothing
babe its you and i
with you i know
i am good for something
so lets go give it a try
we got our backs against the ocean
its just us against the world
looking at all or nothing
babe its you and i
looking at all or nothing
babe its you and i

this is it nothing to hide
one more kiss never say goodbye
this is it babe your all mine
looking at all or nothing
babe its you and i
i know that i am good for something
so lets go give it a try
we got our backs against the ocean
its just us against the world
looking at all or nothing
babe its you and i
with you i know that
i am good for something
so lets go give it a try

we got our backs against the ocean
its just us against the world
looking at all or nothing
babe its you and i
looking at all or nothing
babe its you and i
babe its you and i

Theory Of A Deadman- Not Meant to Be

Its never enough to say i am sorry
Its never enough to say I care
but I am caught between
what you wanted from me
and knowing if i give that to you
i might just disappear

Nobody wins when everyone is losing
oh, its like one step foward
and two stepsback
no matter what i do your always mad
and I can't change your mind
Oh, Its like tryin to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
and it's killing me and I,
I'm starting to see that
maybe we're not meant to be

Its never enough to say I love you
No, It's never enought to say I try
Its hard to believe that there's
no way out for you and me.
And it seems to be
the story of our life.

Nobody wins when everyones losing
Oh, Its like one step forward
and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
and I can't change your mind, oh
Its like trying to turn around on a
on way street. I can't give
you want you want and its killing me
And Im, i'm starting to see
that maybe we're not meant to be

Theres still time to turn this around
should we be building this up
instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
maybe it's too late

It's like one step foward
and two steps back,
no matter what I do
you're always mad and I
Can't change your mind on
Its like trying to turn around on a
on way street. I can't give
you want you want and its killing me
And I finally see,
Baby we're not meant to be

Queria dizer o que sinto, queria tentar mostrar que sou digno a ter-te junto de mim. Queria ser capaz de olhar para cada janela e nao ver a tua face, queria disser que nao me magoei, mas mentiria. Tenho medo do dia seguinte, não estaras junto a mim, terei medo de me perder, terei medo de desistir. Os minutos passam as respostas sao diferentes mas todas irao dar ao mesmo, perdi-te para sempre, e não consigo chorar.

Inicio este espaço para dizer tudo aquilo que não consigo transmitir de outra forma, todas as incertezas, duvidas ou pensamentos. Absurdos ou lógicos. Este é o espaço para expor tudo o que me corroi, aqui encontro um porto para dizer tudo. Uma "biblia" de minha vida...